5.17.2014

nasihat seorang teman

"cumanlo yang tau bahagianya lo kaya gimana...cumanlo yang bisa rasain itu...gw cuman temenlo yang bisa ngedukunglo dan pasang badan buatlo buat apapun itu.i'll be on ur side...sekarang lo lakuin yang harus lo lakuin...yang tau baik atau enggaknya cumanlo bukan orang lain"

- nasihat diperjalanan menuju rumah,, i wish i could hug you today lorr -

5.13.2014

50tahun si ibuk

hari ini si ibuk ulangtaun
ulang taunnya yang ke 50
cuman berharap semoga dia happy
dan berharap dia selalu sehat

saya tau, dia ga bakal seterusnya ada disamping saya
tapi saya berharap
dia ada nanti ketika seseorang memohon ijinnya untuk memiliki saya
dia ada nanti ketika saya butuh dukungan dan keyakinan untuk melangkah lebih lanjut
dia ada nanti ketika saya butuh bimbingan konseling untuk bikin soto sokaraja untuk seseorang
dia ada nanti ketika saya butuh sebuah pelukan hangat
dia ada nanti untuk melihat saya bahagia

terima kasih untuk selalu menjadi ibu yang hebat
terima kasih untuk menjadikan saya seperti saya yang sekarang
terima kasih untuk selalu bilang "mama percaya kamu tau yang terbaik buat kamu..mama selalu ada disamping kamu apapun keadaannya"
terima kasih untuk sampai detik ini selalu percaya, yakin, dan tidak pernah ragu kepada saya
terima kasih untuk selalu menyayangi saya

happy 50 ibuk...
wish nothing but ur happiness

5.08.2014

si opung

pagi ini kembali lagi si opung bikin hati saya nyeess

saya : pak,,kelapangan yah abis tim bilding. udah lama ga naik pak. kangen laut

pak bos : (sambil megang pundak) nduk, kalo dulu aku takut kamu kelaut kamu dicariin sama ibu bapakmu, sekarang aku lebih takut lagi. aku takut kamu ga cuman dicariin inu bapakmu tapi kamu dicariin juga sama calon mertua dan pacarmu. nanti calon mertuamu sama pacarmu mau nyari calon mantu kaya kamu dimana lagi coba kalo kamu kenapa kenapa dilaut

saya : (mendadak pingin negek stimsol campur barite sama sea water)

5.07.2014

each tears

In each tear, there's a lesson. Makes you wiser than before, makes you stronger than you know.


Mary J Blige - Each Tear

selfnote

Everything has its own place in time and everyone has their own time to spread their wings. Always believe that beautiful things come to those who wait.

5.06.2014

kebangun

Realizing that you’re not really sure what “home” is anymore, because even though this is technically where you come from, you’re not sure you fit into the shape of the puzzle piece that you left behind. Being where you belong, maybe not today but someday, is something you’re willing to work for.

Chelsea Fagan

5.03.2014

before SUNRISE-SUNSET-MIDNIGHT

akhirnya saya mengkhatamkan sekuel before sunrise-sunset-midnight semalam.
film yang dari dulu pingin saya selesain tapi ga pernah kesampean. karena saya selalu takut bosen nontonnya.
tapi ternyata enggak. semuanya berasa makesense. ketemu sama orang yang bisa diajak ngobrol apa aja ga ada abisnya. dan beruntungnya mereka berjodoh jadi selalu dipertemukan kembali.
sangat suka sama percakapan si celine sama jesse :

-Before Sunrise-

Jesse: Alright, I have an admittedly insane idea, but if I don't ask you this it's just, uh, you know, it's gonna haunt me the rest of my life
Celine: What?
Jesse: Um... I want to keep talking to you, y'know. I have no idea what your situation is, but, uh, but I feel like we have some kind of, uh, connection. Right?
Celine: Yeah, me too.

Celine: I believe if there's any kind of God it wouldn't be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it's almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt.
 
Celine: When you talked earlier about after a few years how a couple would begin to hate each other by anticipating their reactions or getting tired of their mannerisms-I think it would be the opposite for me. I think I can really fall in love when I know everything about someone-the way he's going to part his hair, which shirt he's going to wear that day, knowing the exact story he'd tell in a given situation. I'm sure that's when I know I'm really in love.
 -When love can come as a complete surprise.-

-Before Sunset-

Jesse: In the months leading up to my wedding, I was thinking about you all the time. I mean, even on my way there; I'm in the car, a buddy of mine is driving me downtown and I'm staring out the window, and I think I see you, not far from the church, right? Folding up an umbrella and walking into a deli on the corner of 13th and Broadway. And I thought I was going crazy, but now I think it probably was you.
Celine: and I lived on 11th and Broadway.
Jesse: You see?

Celine: So, I want to try something.
Jesse: What?
Celine: [hugs him] I want to see if you stay together or if you dissolve into molecules.
Jesse: How am I doing?
Celine: Still here.
Jesse: Good, I like being here.

Jesse: I just... I don't wanna be one of those people who are... getting divorced at 52, and falling down into tears, admitting that they never really loved their spouse, and they feel that their life has been... sucked up into a vacuum cleaner! You know, I want a great life. I want her to have a great life. She deserves that! All right. But we're just living in a pretense of a marriage, responsibility, and all these... just... ideas of how people are suppose to live. Then I... I have these dreams...

 -What if you had a second chance with the one that got away?-

 -Before Midnight-

Nina: Like sunlight, sunset, we appear, we disappear. We are so important to some, but we are just passing through.

Jesse: But i also know that you love me. And i'm okay with you being a complicated human being. I don't want to live a boring life, where two people own each other, where two people are institutionalized in a box that others created because that is a bunch of stifling bullshit.


aaannndd happy ending...




5.01.2014

suatu hari

Suatu hari, kau akan bertemu seseorang yang membuatmu berkata “Ya” tanpa menimbang untung dan rugi.
Suatu hari kau akan bertemu seseorang dan seketika tahu, dialah yang selama ini kau cari. Karena kalian terlahir untuk saling bersua.
Suatu hari kau akan bertemu seseorang dan melupakan segala aturan dan permainan yang kau tahu. Dan kali ini kau hanya akan mendengarkan hatimu.
Suatu hari kau akan bertemu seseorang yang membuatmu lupa akan luka-lukamu. Suatu hari kau akan bertemu dengannya, dan kembali percaya.
Suatu hari kau akan bertemu seseorang yang tak sempurna dan bersedia mengabaikan segala ketaksempurnaan itu untuk bisa bersamanya.
Suatu hari, kau akan bertemu seseorang yang matanya menunjukkan kepadamu jalan pulang ke rumah.
Suatu hari kau akan bertemu seseorang, dan kau akan tahu. Tanpa meragu.

the mother

When your mother has grown older, 
When her dear, faithful eyes 
no longer see life as they once did, 
When her feet, grown tired, 
No longer want to carry her as she walks -

Then lend her your arm in support, 
Escort her with happy pleasure. 
The hour will come when, weeping, you 
Must accompany her on her final walk. 

And if she asks you something, 
Then give her an answer. 
And if she asks again, then speak! 
And if she asks yet again, respond to her, 
Not impatiently, but with gentle calm. 

And if she cannot understand you properly 
Explain all to her happily. 
The hour will come, the bitter hour, 
When her mouth asks for nothing more


A very beautiful poem written by Adolf Hitler. 
percaya ga sih si hitler bisa nulis puisi sebagus ini. yup, semua orang pasti punya sisi melankolis didirinya

wondering

Sometimes I wonder if you've only got a certain number of words and sentences in your head and if you use them all up, you get quiet.

Maybe that's why the young have so much to say, while the old hold what little words they have left so close and so tightly in their hearts.